Ex-Husband’s Regret by Evelyn M.M

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Before I can answer that question or think too deeply about it, the bell rings Taking my

things, I

dash out of my class without saying a single word to my students.

I keep my head down as I rush to the teacher’s lounge. I just want to breathe a little

before I have to go to my next class Luckily, no one stops me in the hallway. I wasn’t really

in the mood to talk

to anyone

I get to the teacher lounge and freeze up. I was expecting it to be at least somewhat

empty, but it

was damn packed. I release a groan as I walk to the furthest seat.

My phone rings just as I sit down. Nora’s name flashes. I’ve ignored their calls not really

sure how

to handle them. Especially given their relationship with Ethan I go to hang up, but I press

the

accept button instead

“Hello, Ava?” she calls out.

I don’t say anything. Just release the breath I was holding.

“Please my dear, please don’t shut me out. Don’t shut me and your father out” she

whispers her

voice catching at the end.

I still don’t say anything. I couldn’t even if I wanted to. My mouth refuses to move. To utter

a single

fucking word.

“You’re my daughter, Ava and I want to be in your life. I want to be the mother I was

supposed to

1. be. I know you’re hurting and I want to be there for you. I already lost one child,

please don’t make

me lose another. Losing you again just after finding you would kill me” she pleads, crying

and it

breaks my heart.

Tears fill my eyes. Damn it. I’ve been so emotional these past few weeks.

“I need time” I tell her slowly. Trying to push back my emotions.

She releases a breath. “I’ll give you time if that’s what you need, but always remember

that I love

you. I’ve always carried you in my heart even when I thought you had died. I hope you can

trust

me and know that I’ll always be here for you if you need me” 1

Gosh. It feels so good to be wanted, but I don’t know if I can trust them yet. Only time will

tell.

“Okay” I reply before hanging up.

I get what she’s saying, but I just don’t know. What if she’s just looking for someone to

hang on to?

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the gap. That’s what I’m afraid of. Of being used. Of being a second choice just like I was

with

Rowan.

I wasn’t being cold or anything like that towards them. I was just trying to protect the

remaining

pieces of my heart.

“Damn girl” Carol says walking towards my table.

“Fuck” I groan under my breath.

She was a junior highschool teacher and she had a way of annoying the hell out of people.

Mainly

because she likes to stick her nose in other people’s businesses.

“All that food” she looks at me in shock. “With the way you’ve been eating and how

moody you are

nowadays, one would think you’re preggo” she finishes with a laugh. 2

I know she was joking, but I freeze in my seat. Her words ring in my mind like a broken

record.

Driving fear through every fiber of my body.

She notices my behavior and frowns. “Are you okay, Ava? You have to know that I was just

joking

right?”

I quickly stand up as panic starts coursing through my body. Rushing out of the lounge, I

blindly ran through the hallway till I am out of the school. I immediately jump into my car

and speed out

of the parking lot.

Shit. This couldn’t be happening. Please don’t let it be happening. 2

I try to think back. Try to do the math, but my mind is so jumbled that I cannot think

straight.

I drive fast, not caring that I will probably be pulled for over speeding. I needed to confirm

that

Carol was wrong.

Getting to the store, I park my car and rush out. Unluckily for me, I bump into Emma.

“Ava?” she calls a bit surprised. Probably because I look like a big fucking mess.

I ignore her and ran to the ladies section. Finding what I need, I take a bunch of them and

quickly

move to the counter. Once I have my purchase, I leave.

I get into my car and soon I’m at home. I know the drill. So I drink around three glasses of

water

and then head to my bathroom and take the test.

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60. Breaking point

[Warning. The following chapter contains content that maybe triggering to some]

No This can’t be happening to me. I can’t be pregnant. Not now and definitely not with

Ethan’s

baby

“Why God?” I whisper as the tears fall down my face.

I wait for an answer but none comes. He doesn’t tell me why this was happening to me.

He doesn’t

tell me why he had to make me this unlucky.

I try to pick myself from the bathroom floor, but I just don’t have the energy. I’m

completely

drained.

Was it my lot in life to have unplanned pregnancies? First with Noah and now this one. 2

I stare sightlessly at the tiled floor, thinking back. Ethan and I had unprotected S** once. I

was supposed to take a morning after pill, but I completely forgot. By the time I

remembered, a few

days had already passed.

I told Ethan about it. I expected him to be angry about it, but he wasn’t. Instead he calmed

me

down. We both reasoned that it was unlikely for me to be pregnant. 1

I noticed some changes, like my period being late, but I thought it was due to the stress I

was

under. I never gave much thought to my increase in appetite since I always eat when I’m

stressed

or sad.

The banging on my door startles me, but I don’t get up. Now more than before, I didn’t

want to see

anybody. When the banging continues, I put my head between my knees and cover my

ears. I just

wanted whoever it is to leave.

It becomes silent for a while. I breathe a sigh of relief but then start to panic when I hear

the door

open and heavy footsteps walking upstairs.

Before I can do anything, like maybe hide, in case it was an intruder. A shadow fills the

door way

to my bathroom.

“Ava?” Rowan’s deep voices resonates through the entire room.

The moment my eyes meet with his, I start crying again. Of all people, why did it have to

be him?